while
while
Song: Its Been A While, Staind
It’s been a while to say the least… January was my last post and since then A LOT has changed. After an unfortunate store closing at Orvis due to lease increase, I was forced to find a new job. As much of a bummer it was to move on from what I considered a “perfect fit” I quickly found myself excited for the next chapter. Working at Orvis was great. Teaching fly fishing on the weekends and chatting with customers about the sport while spooling up their new reel will live on in my head, those memories are lasting. So… With new found confidence in both my abilities and kind nature I set out to find a new job.
After a couple month’s of searching, interviewing, waiting and searching more my wife mentioned an open position at her place of work. Considering the empty job search results thus far I was grateful for another chance to interview. Now after about a month of working as a medical courier I can now say that I have found my next “perfect fit.” Beyond the work situation I have been actively reading more. If you know me, you know that I do not read books. In my entire life I have read a total of 6 books, I think. Among them are Alcoholics Anonymous, The Bible, the 5 Love Languages, and a Grant Hill Autobiography to name a few. I find myself heavily interested in religion, spirituality, ancient civilizations, and quantum mechanics these days. I have spread my religious text reads out to the Nag Hammadi library and the gnostic texts contained within the dead sea scrolls, the Ethiopian Bible, the Torah and translations, the Quran, and Buddhism studies including the eight fold path and meditation practices.
I’ll be honest. I do find myself to have changed in beliefs and perspective through these studies. I do find salvation of upmost importance. I do believe in Jesus as both a prophet and the Messiah just as most other religions do. To be brutally honest, I do believe that God and Jesus are separate. I do believe that Hell is or can be temporary. I don’t believe salvation can be earned nor do I believe that any person to have or yet to exist is exempt from the ultimate work of Jesus’ saving… Don’t judge me lol. I consider myself more spiritual than religious and I seek knowledge in the name of added perspective. The remainder of my reading into ancient civilization and quantum mechanics helps me when smoothing or building my totality. Does everyone have a “totality?” The overarching and overall understanding of the universe and its operation is something I have been carefully contemplating and refining for as long as I can remember. These readings have greatly helped me bring clarity and understanding to MY totality. Ok, weird but true honesty and vulnerability aside life is good, and I am still beyond grateful for all I am, have, and love…
Be kind in nature, compassionate in thought, and open to new or different perspectives for you will not regret.